rock steady

finally got to go out with weipeng and mark. had a drink at starbucks and then we went to a pool place to shoot some pool. even though i was hot on form. i lost all the games i played. darn. today was kinda like a normal day for once. i didnt have really much to do. just came home and just really sat ard the house. i realise that even though i forgot cyn in my mind, i still have part of her in my heart. and that's really something that i feel i struggle and i really need to work on with God. i felt rotten when bingren said he saw her or allegedly saw her with someone and they were holding hands at city hall. i don't know how to bring myself to ask her and i dont think i will ever be so stupid to ever ask her. i guess it's all abt trusting her (like she's my u noe.. yah right!) that she's always faithful to God n don't let the imagination run wild on me.