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just realised that i had only left $100 in my bank. this is really crap lor. i've no one to blame but myself. i don't want to live in lack. i don't want to spend money frivously. i wasn't born with a sliver spoon in the mouth like some people. i am poor now. but it doesn't mean i'll be poor always. i love my parents. and there's some thing that i can't write here for we are to honor our parents as God commands. but from this moment, how my cash flow and stuff is going to be like.. i'm really going to be active in seeing it come and go. i'm going to take notes, take charge of things. i'm sick and tired of seeing my money creeping away from me. no. this is not the way. i will still honor God with the money He gives me. i knw as i sow, i shall reap a harvest. oh Lord.. where is the harvest Lord.... i need a financial breakthru. i don't want to live in lack. and i don't wnt my kids.. if i ever had them.. to be like me.. to know wat it's like to live in lack. ppl may think i'm well-off but that's cos they don't know my financial life only. i'm not that well-off actually. to whoever reads this.. don't pity me.. pray for me. thanks a lot.