rock steady

i think it;s been like a couple of days since i last updated this blog. and so many things have happened. in usher, like sis shu zhen has left us to join service 2. sister shirley has come in to take over. and things are starting to change liao. i just felt that sooner or later, unless something goes wrong or i go wrong myself. i'll be back in action with the rest of the ics and helpers. i tink since fri.. it's really been quite a whirlwind emotionally. i guess the three words ' i like u' were nothing significant on fri. but on sat, these words just became a little meaningful. just heard news tat the person who uttered these words to me had broken up with her bf. i felt those words were uttered in jest and now i still think like that and i want it to remain like that. without any other meaning. sat was nothing much. but i guess sunday was when things start happening. took the bus with her. (it's gota be a she, i'm not GAY!) so i sat in front of her and she wanted me to sit with her so i can "nua" with her. definition: she rested her head on my shoulders and i rested my head on her head.. and we just feel asleep. cos we were so tired. i dont know abt her. but i really forced myself to sleep and not feel excited abt it. and before she left with her guy friend back home. she gave me a hug. i was like totally caught out. and this's the first time that someone hugged me, a girl that is. i'm really trying my best not to be excited abt this. and i really don't want to be a rebound guy for her. i told God today that i am sorry i entertained thots in my head and i repented. i just want to turn my eyes upon Jesus and do faithfully the things that He's given me and the ppl He placed into my hands. so that's it.. cya all..