rock steady

somehow the fire has been ignited, sparked off again. wonder what did the trick, a lot of things but i guess one big factor was the talk with quan soon. it was a long talk, one that lasted till five in the morning, but it was nevertheless fruitful, and it left me with a lot of insights not just abt him and his character, but also the inadequacies in my life and issues that needed to be addressed immediately. upon reaching camp yesterday, i have the urge to just pray, even if for a few minutes. OCS is a different creature from BMTC, for as long as i've been here, i can't really seem to pray here. i guess it's really my heart condition and how far my relationship with God has deteriorated. i want to set things right and get things moving again. enuff abt this and on to other stuff.. i wrote certain stuff in my last report to bro yang yi, and interestingly enough during our conversation on icq, he suggested a certain someone. well, i'm interested but it hasn't progressed on to a liking, not till i get to know this certain someone. right now, all i can think of abt is my future and how it's going to be like. there's a big decision that i need to make and i need to pull it off right to ensure that everything will just flow smoothly.