rock steady

i did it. i stopped myself. i fought my desires and i won. i can't believe it that i walked away, literally staring the gift horse in the mouth. i stopped myself from kissing her. it's not the time. i want to save up this kiss for the moment. the first time that i'll kiss a girl for the 22 yrs of my life. yup, that's long isn't it? i don't want to steal the fun, the excitement, the joy from that day. i can wait. i know i can. cos it'll just make everything better. the kiss signifies the next stage, a greater commmittment. and what better way than to seal it with a kiss? i'm already bristling with excitement. what more abt then? i want to honor God in this, not just in words, but in my actions too. it's been a struggle, always fighting my emotions and my flesh, but it's one fight i'm determined not to lose. Father, hope You'll be proud of me as u look down on me just now...