rock steady

what next? i've gotten the letter from the specialist. now i can get upgraded if i just throw in the letter. the thing is do i want to? i've got to speak to a lot of other ppl, actually just 2 more, before i made up my mind. what do i really want in life? what do i really want to do? is this the right thing to do? will this be the best thing to do and will it be the best thing that will happen to me. if it succeeds, i only know that what separates me from the rest of the guys is that i have a job. i'm financially secure for once. and my family doesn't have to worry anymore abt not having enough money. but am i hankering after treasures on this earth when i shld be working towards my treasures in heaven? i don't want to shortchange my destiny.