rock steady

so i guess it's all over by now. and it's just one huge load of this broad shoulders. the issue abt the army has just being weighing so heavily on my mind that nothing close can really take it away. i guess it's partly my own fault. loneliness sets in at times and when it teams up with your emotions, it really does weird things to you when it takes control. and you do things that you only think about in your subconscious. it takes two hands to clap, two to tango and takes two to do smething.. and i guess through this i learnt so much abt signals, the right and wrong type of signals to give and the repercussions and consequences that each give. and what heavy responsibility that each come with. at times i feel so heavy ladden, and it's not because of cell grp, church, family, financial difficulties or work, but because of this crossroads i'm facing right now... it's going to determine my destiny, my future.