rock steady

this is the 3 entry in a series of conversations between me and Meiyun @ Zarah @ Maria. so it's a hat-trick, and frankly it's getting quite interesting. hopefully this will be the last one btween us. hmmm.. nothing much to say actually for a last entry. and the end is supposed to be better than the beginning. well, i dont really know wat to say. i guess i'm here cos i'm facing my screen and just want to type something. so until the brain starts working again. see u.

thanks once again for yur concern.. thk u very much.. just wanna say that it doesnt matter if wat u know abt him can or cannot be printed. it doesn't really matter at all. wat's going on btw them is their own matter and it doesn't concern me one bit.. hee hee.. and that's the honest truth. i'm just happy to be her friend. and that's all. i never did see anythin happening between us. and i dont think anything will ever happen. i can go out with her and i can dont feel anything. so just keep me in prayer and thanks for everything.. see u ard on sunday

OK OK.. i correct myself. u r not a big KAPO. u r a BIG CONCERNED KAPO. can? hope u r happy now.. lol. and really thanks for yur concern abt my love life.. if that can be considered as my love life. i guess even if the both of them do get together.. i wouldn't feel much. ppl might think in their hearts.. sure or not. of course i'm sure. cos as i say again, it ain't my time and it definitely ain't my season. it's definitely a season to make friends though. lol.. to make them, maintain them and keep them. as pets. JUST JOKING. i'm really very flattered that u think i deserve someone better. i wonder y and wat makes u think that way. well, u r free to give me a call and talk to me abt this. my number is 97564294 just in case u dont have it. well, i was short, fat and ugly. i'm no longer short, going to become fat again if i keep on eating like i am now.. and i'm definitely still ugly. so i'm really like hmmm.. i deserve someone better? that's a real compliment.. i'm really honoured. i'm not going to hurt myself this time round. that's all i know.. and thanks again for reading this faithfully.. lol.

haha.. finally i update my blog. got a complaint that i don't update this regularly. so this time this is going to be long.. lol. and zarah, thanks for reading. even though u r 1 BIG KAPO. lol. hear u r going to be a cgl soon ah.. congrats man sister.. u really rise up very fast and it's glad to see a friend moving forward to serve our Lord more in the Kingdom siah. ok ok.. now for the real stuff. hmm.. it seems in my gang of friends.. everyone has target one lor.. no.. not the spiritual kind.. but the female kind. LOLL. from the oldest who is yingjie, to ray, to jasper and even carter. carter doesn't share one lor.. stupid bugger. one day going to torture out of him.. oh yah.. how can i forget davin? hahaha. ya lor.. everyone has a target except me. y? cos i'm on VOW. oh yah. that 3 letter word. haha. till next april 05. and already i feel that someone already has walked into my life. like a hurricane. guess wat.. her cliche of friends all guys now lor. based on wat i think is how she gets attached... she will get attached with the one who hangs out with her the most.. and right now there's one guy who hangs ard with her the most.. he's in security. dunno leh.. see him these days.. he also like dont want to talk to me.. hmm.. dont tell us we jealous of each other.. lol. was telling ray and ying jie that i'm calming myself down these days.. i dont want to get excited over her. cos it's not my time, it's not my season. and to do anything now is to fall on my own sword. and the only person i hurt is myself. and i will hurt myself badly. as wat happened the last time. i tink only when she walked or rather waltzed into my life.. did i not feel the half-closed wounds in my heart.. she's a fun person to hang out with. something tells me that we'll stay that way. which is good for the current season. =) i keep telling myself that God made someone for me liao.. and i dont have to rush things or be overly anxious.. rather be anxious for nothing in fact.. been trying to apply matt 6:33.. lol... just want to do His stuff and that's it. i was talking to God on friday and i was saying that i could do a bit more.. and this week i got posted to team b in section 9. was just supposed to help out.. but somehow the ic decided to take a break.. and now i am taking the team.. it's really been a fast-paced weekend.. somehow God likes to make my weekends fast-paced.. lol. so i'm feeling stretched like never before.. i thank God that He sees me worthy of taking care of His sheep... not only am i taking care of ppl in the usher ministry.. but also in the cg.. He's given me ppl to take care of.. and i don't know wat to say.. somehow i sheepishly has started to have more sheep under my stewardship. it's really so amazing.. i can't believe it myself.. but it also means i have more responsibilities.. which is a bit of a sigh... =p oh well.. just got to go abt doing His stuff.. and watch wat i pray..