rock steady

i sit on the table and
i look at You Lord
wouldn't You clean my hands
and clean my heart as well?

i want to sit with You God
forever in this place
that we can talk forever
till the end of the day

i want to be cleansed
from my head to the toe
i want to be sanctified
like an offering to You

to be continued..

oh God, have u forsaken thee?
have u forgotten thee?
have thee sown in vain,
that thee shall reap not.

have thy seeds fallen on stony grd,
or have the birds plundered them in one fell swoop?
oh Lord, remember your servant
as he sows..
that You shall cause thee to reap in joy

i turn thy eyes to Thee
for my heart is in despair
but You shall surely bring hope
that will cause thy heart to glow

You are thy Rock,
and i shall be with Thee
till Thee comes again

just realised that i had only left $100 in my bank. this is really crap lor. i've no one to blame but myself. i don't want to live in lack. i don't want to spend money frivously. i wasn't born with a sliver spoon in the mouth like some people. i am poor now. but it doesn't mean i'll be poor always. i love my parents. and there's some thing that i can't write here for we are to honor our parents as God commands. but from this moment, how my cash flow and stuff is going to be like.. i'm really going to be active in seeing it come and go. i'm going to take notes, take charge of things. i'm sick and tired of seeing my money creeping away from me. no. this is not the way. i will still honor God with the money He gives me. i knw as i sow, i shall reap a harvest. oh Lord.. where is the harvest Lord.... i need a financial breakthru. i don't want to live in lack. and i don't wnt my kids.. if i ever had them.. to be like me.. to know wat it's like to live in lack. ppl may think i'm well-off but that's cos they don't know my financial life only. i'm not that well-off actually. to whoever reads this.. don't pity me.. pray for me. thanks a lot.

after spending up to a yr odd in the army, i realise a very funny thing. and that's when someone enlists into the army, pulau tekong will rain. yup. every batch that i see coming in is welcomed by a shower. my section mates were joking that God is feeling sad for all of us that are coming in to be totrtured that he's crying as we come in. but army's really fun unless u get injured like me. but right now, i'm enjoying my hols. lol. also realise that i talk better to girls when i don't like them "that" way. somehow, it's just easier to talk and i don't get tongue-tied so easily. lol. later, gotta go for conference. hmmm... ushering. wonder where i will do. hopefully i will be at the overflow with sam. we r both such slackers. lol.