rock steady

went out with qi today. he's very free and very nice to go out with me. to bras brasah to buy art stuff. ended up... losing half of the things i bought. that's really damn suck thumb siah. wat an expensive and painful lesson to learn today. met jing yin on the way.. tat crazy woman. pulled me along to look for sis shu zhen's farewell gift cum (hopefully) bday gift... then she tagged along with qi and me. cos her lessons only start at like 1630 hrs. so from 2.30 to 4.30 she kept us company or rather it was the other way rd.. wah lau.. come into our pool time.. i'm such a meanie... anyway the three of us went to eat tau huey. i tell u the tau huey at parklane is the best in singapore.. ate 2 bowls..

finally got to go out with weipeng and mark. had a drink at starbucks and then we went to a pool place to shoot some pool. even though i was hot on form. i lost all the games i played. darn. today was kinda like a normal day for once. i didnt have really much to do. just came home and just really sat ard the house. i realise that even though i forgot cyn in my mind, i still have part of her in my heart. and that's really something that i feel i struggle and i really need to work on with God. i felt rotten when bingren said he saw her or allegedly saw her with someone and they were holding hands at city hall. i don't know how to bring myself to ask her and i dont think i will ever be so stupid to ever ask her. i guess it's all abt trusting her (like she's my u noe.. yah right!) that she's always faithful to God n don't let the imagination run wild on me.

appointment with mark and weipeng cancelled. weipeng is busy again. i wonder if we are his friends or not. maybe not. went for the 2nd bbq in 5 days. this time it was a SP bbq. it was actually for those who went for the parade of schools. i was with ray as we went out to get a gift for ying jie. so i tagged along. we were also supposed to go and visit april's bf's stall at the pasir panjang market. business was gd and they sold out early. and i was looking forward to eating something from there for free. anyway back to the bbq.. ray and i were like quite anti-social. actually quite is an understatement. so we just sat there together and almost thought that we were from the same cell grp. ppl there were quite friendly and came up to us to make small talk. ray was like super advertising me all the way and i felt so embarrassed. not going to go to a bbq where i dont know everyone and will end up being advertised. for once, i'm content to have no target in mind. =)