Friday, August 03, 2007
SITREP
SITREP = Situation Report.
Just wanted to put my thoughts on this 3rd day of Aug down in writing rather than in prose
which only serve to confuse people at times and also for just my own understanding.
Pretty much settled in the cell group on a personal level. People all round are nice and friendly,
sometimes too nice for my liking actually. But it's all real and not a show of pretense.
Somehow things are rolling and responsibility has landed on my shoulders. In this direction,
pretty much dissatisfaction in terms of impact and also relationships. Much could be done on both ends and while many are called, few are chosen; growth is of essential to man and women alike regardless, and such a need to grow spiritually before the dark days approach the earth.
Deliverance was gd. Went down with faith and praying in faith that God moved in my life.
Some people might dismiss it as purely psychological, but I've seen Him work on a real basis.
Basically, I can sleep at night, the fear is gone. Everything is now lighter,
easier to move. Which points down to 2 things hindering me: 1) My own laziness. 2) Relutance
to move out of the pad. Her sister has taken on a job in the same industry. Stressed.
Still pondering if the job is what I want to do 10 years down the road. Basically, I'm looking to settle down into a pattern where the dough rolls in on a regular basis and I don't dread what I'm doing at that point of the time. Don't really want to waste away the last quarter of the year.
Better cash my cheques where my mouth is.
Relationships. Guy didn't think much of girl at first. Guy thinks girl is pretty nice and sweet. Guy sees the good stuff in girl. Guy kinda likes girl. Guy likes girl. Guy really really likes girl now. Girl thinks guy is OK, just OK.
Basically that's how it's going right now. Can it get worse? At least I'm considered OK.
No one wants to really settle for second best, do they.
For chaps who happen to be emotional, at moments impulsive, like yours truly over here, it's always good to just hold the horses, for one may give off the impression that he's SCARY, whereas he's just trying to get to know the person better and also trying to make a good impresssion.
Even though biblically, woman was created out of Man, however, they never shared the same mind that man possessed when he was first created. Therefore, understanding women has always been the longest and perhaps the most tiring game that a man can ever play.
Till now, I'm second-guessed by her with almost 90 percent accuracy and I'm so unable to really read her thoughts.
The last thing I guess is to really hurt someone who puts her feelings into a relationship.
Just wanted to put my thoughts on this 3rd day of Aug down in writing rather than in prose
which only serve to confuse people at times and also for just my own understanding.
Pretty much settled in the cell group on a personal level. People all round are nice and friendly,
sometimes too nice for my liking actually. But it's all real and not a show of pretense.
Somehow things are rolling and responsibility has landed on my shoulders. In this direction,
pretty much dissatisfaction in terms of impact and also relationships. Much could be done on both ends and while many are called, few are chosen; growth is of essential to man and women alike regardless, and such a need to grow spiritually before the dark days approach the earth.
Deliverance was gd. Went down with faith and praying in faith that God moved in my life.
Some people might dismiss it as purely psychological, but I've seen Him work on a real basis.
Basically, I can sleep at night, the fear is gone. Everything is now lighter,
easier to move. Which points down to 2 things hindering me: 1) My own laziness. 2) Relutance
to move out of the pad. Her sister has taken on a job in the same industry. Stressed.
Still pondering if the job is what I want to do 10 years down the road. Basically, I'm looking to settle down into a pattern where the dough rolls in on a regular basis and I don't dread what I'm doing at that point of the time. Don't really want to waste away the last quarter of the year.
Better cash my cheques where my mouth is.
Relationships. Guy didn't think much of girl at first. Guy thinks girl is pretty nice and sweet. Guy sees the good stuff in girl. Guy kinda likes girl. Guy likes girl. Guy really really likes girl now. Girl thinks guy is OK, just OK.
Basically that's how it's going right now. Can it get worse? At least I'm considered OK.
No one wants to really settle for second best, do they.
For chaps who happen to be emotional, at moments impulsive, like yours truly over here, it's always good to just hold the horses, for one may give off the impression that he's SCARY, whereas he's just trying to get to know the person better and also trying to make a good impresssion.
Even though biblically, woman was created out of Man, however, they never shared the same mind that man possessed when he was first created. Therefore, understanding women has always been the longest and perhaps the most tiring game that a man can ever play.
Till now, I'm second-guessed by her with almost 90 percent accuracy and I'm so unable to really read her thoughts.
The last thing I guess is to really hurt someone who puts her feelings into a relationship.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Wednesday
So side by side we sat
this ain't like the movies
though we were in one
where dreams come alive
how big is that step
we both read it differently
i am just really surprised
that you even bother to agree
to you it's another wednesday
but today's just a little extra
special because you are around
i know it's all a sweet dream
loggerheads we are end of the day
i'm sorry i got my way again
i promise i'll give in to you
i can't read how you really feel
on the train here we go
you do your stuff and i do mine
i'm just more stubborn
than you imagine i will be
another lonely journey back home
empty seats reflects my heart
quarter century spent just alone
is that really my story
everything's just really normal
should i really go and pray
that it will always remain
just the same like today?
as i pray and hope
to receive the gift of my heart
i will honor and remember
the one who gives me delight
this ain't like the movies
though we were in one
where dreams come alive
how big is that step
we both read it differently
i am just really surprised
that you even bother to agree
to you it's another wednesday
but today's just a little extra
special because you are around
i know it's all a sweet dream
loggerheads we are end of the day
i'm sorry i got my way again
i promise i'll give in to you
i can't read how you really feel
on the train here we go
you do your stuff and i do mine
i'm just more stubborn
than you imagine i will be
another lonely journey back home
empty seats reflects my heart
quarter century spent just alone
is that really my story
everything's just really normal
should i really go and pray
that it will always remain
just the same like today?
as i pray and hope
to receive the gift of my heart
i will honor and remember
the one who gives me delight
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Sunday Sundae
you know who you are, you who reads this now and then:
just dont read it out loud will you?
sunday came like a breeze
it was just the both of us
never got to talk to you
face to face like yesterday
macadamia never tasted so sweet
or was it just the caramel
time melted slowly away
like ice cream that we shared
at first there were three
and soon it became two
maybe it was a coincidence
maybe it wasn't really at all
made that big detour again
sometimes i'm a bloody fool
this time you got your way
footsteps in two separate lanes
i'm not angry i'm not sad
am i happy i dont know
it's all a bag of butterflies
need a net to catch me some
can't hold your dainty hand
freeze time if i had one wish
just to touch your fingertips
sweeter than any ice cream
just dont read it out loud will you?
sunday came like a breeze
it was just the both of us
never got to talk to you
face to face like yesterday
macadamia never tasted so sweet
or was it just the caramel
time melted slowly away
like ice cream that we shared
at first there were three
and soon it became two
maybe it was a coincidence
maybe it wasn't really at all
made that big detour again
sometimes i'm a bloody fool
this time you got your way
footsteps in two separate lanes
i'm not angry i'm not sad
am i happy i dont know
it's all a bag of butterflies
need a net to catch me some
can't hold your dainty hand
freeze time if i had one wish
just to touch your fingertips
sweeter than any ice cream
