rock steady

where are you God
where are you Lord
when can i find you Lord

are you in the fire
are you in the storm
are you in the mountains
or are you in the ocean

and i find you
and i find you
right beside me
the still small voice
beside me

people change all time
people change every time
people change everyday
people change every year

but i'm still me
same old me
is it gd? is it bad?
i havent decided.

nobody can hear you do you know?
everyone's around you but so far away
you build your little brown brick wall
with no windows to let the canaries sing

this path that you are sliding down
have you ever wonder where it'll end?
little slopes to hurl you into the sky
before guiding you down like yesterday

where is the light they spoke of on sunday
there are no lamps in this street of mine
where is the warmth which they clearly felt
all we have is the cold brezze blowing down

flick your light if you can see me
make it shine bright so i can walk to you
i'll crawl to the flickering light

various lines that will combine into a gd poem or song...
tha i'm sure, watever it is

the cold rain pours forth
like tears from a broken heart
pounding the pavements without emotions
like the heartbeat of my very own

so i will stand astride and march
off into the purple sunset horizon
alone in my glide up the rainbow arch
to find the pot of gold in legends told

back off and away down the trodden path
of eternal hope and bitter disappointments
wash away the photographs and songs of
what was to be again my little false dawn

rejected for my abrupt little intrusion
my mind's a whirl and heart a blur
forgive me for my constant interruptions
without me you will live in peace

so eternal hope crumbles before me
now shattered like a broken mirror
in its place is the hollow emptiness
of what was once a place of joy

seeing the doves in their nests
as i sear the breeze again
the blade has been well sharpened
to carve my soul apart

i'll just fade away
fade away fade awwway
into the black shadows

i'll go away
go away go awwway
into this sunset

you'll never hear from me ever
so you can't stop pretending
that you're not there anymore

no need to reply to messages
that take up your screen
or give me nice questions
so i wouldnt turn green